hoping to change my focus

WEDNESDAY 3/11/2020 5:20 PM--I really wanna start thinking about the gigs with Ray tomorrow...I gotta put new strings on the acoustic...IF Dianne goes out tomorrow night I might go to Brian Boru...
6:31 PM- but I shouldn’t...if for no other reason than the fact that I don’t have a voice to sing with...and money is really tight... I’ve got a full tank of gas right now, but that’s got to last for another couple of days...the show with Mike is on Sunday…I still wanna go out Friday evening, but not if my voice isn’t all better...
10:32 PM--practice went way better than I thought it would, including JOSIE...And my singing JENNY may have brought my voice back...hope I didn't just jinx it...and again I say, IF Dianne goes out Thursday evening, I just might as well--IF I'm able to get the new strings on the acoustic...
8 AM--If I've got my voice back, I should give it a rest, so I'm staying in tonight, reluctantly...but I hope to go out tomorrow evening...yet another Patience Test...Ray is expecting me, and Carolyn says (in a Flakebook post) she's gonna be there...yeah, I know--so what?...but any chance for happiness, however brief, is valuable to me...
10:22 AM--new strings on the acoustic, took about 30 minutes...as impatient as I can be, I'm determined to stay in tonight, to rest my singing voice...but I'm getting excited about tomorrow evening...
3:40 PM--downloaded a couple of Barnaby's recordings from last night...they sounded good to me...but I'm getting more excited about tomorrow...not looking forward to travelling on the DC Beltway though...due to circumstances beyond my control, I have no choice...
5:16 PM--it seems like EVERYTHING is being cancelled or postponed due to the Corona Virus pandemic...Ray's gigs may be among those things...that would suck way more than a little...in fact, it would suck way more than A LOT...if I wasn't an Atheist, I'd pray that the gigs would go on as scheduled...I'm not known for being an optimist...now we're waiting to hear from Ray...I guess it's up to the venues...The Universe apparently doesn't want me to sing/play with Ray and Carolyn...and of course, there's the LCB Reunion...it too may be in jeopardy--super duper MAJOR bummer...
        Well, the acoustic guitar has new strings on it...I'm not sure WHY all of a sudden...I'm almost praying that I'll be able to go to Severna Park tomorrow...and the LCB Reunion on the Twenty-first...
7PM--I contacted Brian Boru thru FB Messenger...who knows when I'll hear back from them...Ray's gig TONIGHT is, as far as I know, on as scheduled...the suspense regarding TOMORROW night's gig is, of course, killing me...
7:42 PM--a mutual friend of Ray's sez the gig is on AND I heard back from Brian Boru--THEY say the gig is on...of course, a lot can happen in 24 hours...
8:46 PM--I'm getting excited...I really need to decompress, so I can get some sleep...it's a long time until I leave--somewhere around 5:00 PM...gotta shower, shave, pick an outfit...I have no idea what I'm gonna do for Dinner...Dianne plans to go to Unique, with (or without?) me...there is noting I need, unless I'm forgetting something...I'm pretty sure I won't get a nap after Lunch; I'll be too excited...