should I keep at it?

                  SATURDAY 12/1/18 I'm gonna try to get back to thinking about songwriting...now that I've recovered from the open mic, that is...it's my fault that I've re-started so late in Life...
12:41PM--I added some lyrics to THE FIDDLE SONG, working on some other ones...
1:33PM--then I heard one of Ray's older songs on youTube...why should I bother writing songs, anyway?
5PM--songwriting? I could take it or leave it...I have to stop comparing myself to other writers and remember they've been doing it for a lot longer than me...
                 I'm thinking about what I might play at GYY on Monday...the Plan now is to include an original tune, YOU WON'T HAVE ME probably...
              I need to remember that, for me at least, trying to write when I'm not at all inspired doesn't work;
I just got word, the GYY open mic is moving into the Main room...Like I already said, the Bar was big enough for me...gonna be innaresting...but scary...
      SUNDAY--if I get three songs at GYY, I think I know what they will be...but IF I'm gonna do CLANCY, I need to practice it...so that's what I'm gonna focus on; the songwriting can wait...
      MONDAY--still planning on doing CLANCY tonight...and maybe YOU WON'T HAVE ME and HEAVE AWAY...
3:36PM--so I practiced a teeny bit, hopefully it was enough...I predict I'll be a 7.0 at least, 9.0 at the most...and that's OK by me...

8:45PM- I would say (maybe) 7.0 outta 10...but I really shouldn’t have followed HEAVE AWAY with one of my own songs... it took me a while to remember how MY song went-that’s very embarrassing…
9:28PM-yeah, I think I’ll keep at it...I actually have bits of Music that I might be able to do something with...LAVENDER DAWN and INCIDENT AT BONNEVILLE specifically...and I’m considering playing THE MAIL next week...as for covers, DRAGGIN’ is a possibility...or maybe I'll do some more Neil...

7:50AM--for a bunch of reasons, I'm NOT going to my mini high school reunion...for one thing, there's the SAW workshop in Rockville on Saturday...today, I feel like a (rookie) songwriter...of course a lot can happen between now and Saturday...but I hope it doesn't...

7:24PM--I was gonna ask SLR about her songwriting; but I thought I should listen to her songs first...I tried to listen to GOOD 'N' PLENTY, but I just couldn't...my Bass playing wasn't THAT bad (it was replaced) and my lead guitar playing was forgotten about...so that's that...

9:02PM--it was a bit like pulling teeth, but I finally heard from the friend of mine who hosts a songwriters' workshop in Rockville once a month--it's coming up this Saturday...I still dunno who else is gonna be at Ray's Killarney House gig Saturday evening...maybe that doesn't matter...