maybe it's OK, I dunno

             MONDAY 12/10/18 9:49AM--maybe it's not so important that *I* be knocked out by my own lyrics...the audience decides almost everything, right? So I think HIGH HOPES, my newest song, is finished...
    4:15PM--the Plan for tonight is to play one of my older songs...I just finished writing the Music...My voice sounds a bit ragged to me, so even if I had the courage (and Warner wasn't around) I don't think I would sing/play THE MAIL...
    5:42PM--suddenly changed my Mind about playing at GYY...I'll just go and spectate...Ray's gig (amazing) and band practice (terrible) have taken a lot out of me physically...but I'm leaving in about 15 minutes...
7:14PM-I wish I felt up to participating at GYY...
9:30PM-I’ll stay til the end, because leaving would be obvious...Jay is expecting me at the SAW Xmas Party on Sunday the 16th...he says I should play one of my songs...we’ll see...I plan to go to Charlie’s acoustic open mic on Thursday...but I felt damn near invisible here tonight; to some degree, that was my choice...
TUESDAY 12:44AM--came home, worked on my own songs...gonna pick one (or two) for the open mic on Thursday...I have to remember that the songwriters I know have been doing it way WAY longer than me...but I also wanna remember that the second verse of Neil Young's Ohio was "la la la la la la la la"...and Paul McCartney came up with "wo wo wo wo...wo wo wo wo, my love does it good" so for now I'm gonna keep at it...
   8:43AM--started another new song overnight...I'm in no hurry to finish it...just found out that Agrodolcé is starting up an acoustic open mic on WEDNESDAY, once a month...it's indoors, which Lou has said is a tight squeeze...guess I'll find out...
           12:31PM-hoping to have the courage to play my proposed arrangement of BLUE CHRISTMAS tomorrow...it's gonna be an uptempo shuffle kinda thing...I let Lou know about the open mic; I dunno if he CAN go or not...
           4:10PM--Lou won't be there either...I'm thinking about tomorrow night; thinking about playing THE FUNNY SONG in addition to BLUE XMAS...
7:14PM--hopefully gonna practice while doing laundry tomorrow...gonna try NOT to work in the 1180 Lab...
 8:30PM- in the past 30 minutes I’ve done what I’ve been  thinking of doing ever since I heard some of David Crosby‘s newest music… expand one of my instrumental tunes to have more than just two parts…now all I have to do is practice the darn thing... it’s rather exciting, to tell the truth… But it’s time to start winding down for the evening; fired up though I may be...
 9:25PM--I might not ever get to play THE MAIL in public, because Warner gets around, thanx to that spooky guy who (I think) drives him around everywhere...I know THE FUNNY SONG better than most of my other songs...I SHOULD start learning the newer ones...