overreaching again?

         FRIDAY 5/8/2020 1:44 PM--I'm gonna try ONE MORE TIME to get the reggae style rhythm track CD into the 1180 before I give up...Allegedly I can play it on a portable player and feed that signal into the 1180...my question is: where does it go? to the selected (individual) track? or all eight at once? or 9/10 ? I won't know until later--I NEED a nap...
6:16 PM--gave up on the reggae version of BABY'S IN BLACK...I decided to rock it up a bit...all I've gotta do now is the vocals and the mixing/mastering...I was even able to drop a "dirty" sounding solo in the middle eight where the chorused rhythm guitar was...and smoothly get back out of the track...it all happened in less than two hours...
    I'm pretty sure I'm no longer a member of the FHB...it hurts, quite a bit, but I'll get over it...NOT overnight, but eventually...I can keep busy; I won't make any money, but I'll have some fun...screwing up ISN'T fun, but maybe someday I can record a song from start to finish without screwing up too much...gotta use that checklist...
     Maybe it's because of stress and/or depression, but my Brain hasn't been firing on all cylinders lately, and not just in the 1180 Lab...I haven't done a video for SUGAR MTN. yet and I don't know if I'm gonna bother...yet again, I'm wondering if I'm not nearly as talented as I think I am, which is fairly talented...
       I'm gonna cross my fingers and send the SUGAR MTN. video to Lou--maybe...but I've gotta shoot it first...Got another e-mail from Butch...if the FHB wants me back, ok...if not, that's OK too...my guess is they don't...like I’ve said, it hurts but I’ll get over it...might start thinking about the next recording project...maybe I’ll work on SOLITUDE some more...I imagine no one is ever gonna hear it but me...
                  SATURDAY 5/9/2020 9:15 AM--suddenly I've become uncertain as to how to arrange SOLITUDE...depending on how I arrange it, I think I'll be able to play the duel flutes with one hand...there are a few possibilities, mostly I just need to pick a tempo...my current choice is the tempo of my arrangement of CLOWN, more or less...but first I gotta finish BABY'S IN BLACK...might wait until at least 10:30, *I* feel as though I need to warm up vocally in the car before I try to put the vocals down...