gotta be a better way than "winging it"

                   TUESDAY 5/19/2020 11AM--It's my 65th birthday and it kinda sucks a bit...I finished NEW CORROLLTON and there's an unexplainable permanent screw up on it, just like the last recording I mixed and mastered...is a pattern forming here? I f**king hope not...I guess I'll have to do it all over again, just not today--probably...
4:53PM--just finished re-recording NEW CARROLLTON...it took about two hours altogether...I felt like I knew what I was doing more than usual--didn't make as many mistakes as usual...there's an "electric piano" AND a rhythm guitar on it...I think the piano won't make it to the final mix, except maybe the arpeggio will...the mixing? I think that's gonna be a Project, but I'm gonna try to take my time and give any and every idea plenty of thought before making it final decision...
WEDNESDAY 5/20/2020 9:25 AM--I belatedly realized that *I* am to blame for my not getting to sing QUARANTINE MAN at the open mic...I can’t EVEN figure out why I screwed up...*I* think I got nervous about it and forgot...Ultimately Dan had nothing to do with it...if there's an open mic next Monday, I'll do it, maybe as the first song...I think there's only one more song left for me to record, and that's THE MAIL... I'm not itching to do that one.*I* think it needs a piano, although the demo didn't havv one...
3:30 PM--I thought about doing MESSAGE IN A BOTTLE again, but the idea doesn't excite me...maybe I'll do my version of RUBY TUESDAY or MOTHER'S LITTLE HELPER...
5:39 PM--I came up with a new song I currently call JAZZY THING...as of now, there's a synth riff that might run throughout the song...there might even be a synth solo of some sort in it...If I can't quite find the groove on the "drums" myself, I might just use the keyboard drummer...
         I might start on it tomorrow, I don't think I have anything else going on...or I do and I've forgotten all about it...NONE of the members of the FHB have contacted me even to be nasty to me...I guess Stoney isn't my friend anymore; probably never was...kinda makes me sad...oh well, such is Life...
8:30PM-it’s been a couple of hours now, and I can’t remember how the new song goes… It’s a good thing I recorded parts of it on the BR1180...
THURSDAY 5/21/2020 8:02AM--well JAZZY THING is in my head now...generally, I don't open "the Lab" until after 10AM...I don't wanna disturb the women next door, even though the speakers are not facing their basement...I have no idea how much they can hear now...I REALLY wanna take my time...
12:41PM--but I didn't...still working on JAZZY THING...trying to make each part as close to perfect as *I* can get 'em...gotta finish the synth part, re-do the snare part and add lead guitar...
             Dunno why I can't just relax, slow down and take my time...no one's rushing me but me... considering that the song didn't exist 24(?) hours ago, it's happening quickly...but it doesn't need to
happen quickly...I'll wait until after my attempted nap before I go back to the Lab...if I can finish the synth part I'll be happy and quit for the day...
5:05PM--started from scratch, somewhere around 3:15 or so...the only part(s) left are an acoustic
guitar (maybe) and the electric guitar...then comes the mixing and mastering...
 6:07 PM--ooops...I gotta put down the drums...I have to remember to KISS--keep it simple stupid...trying to wait until tomorrow to do that...THEN I can put down the guitar(s) and mix it--taking my time hopefully...