Really? are you serious?

                SUNDAY 6/30/19 4:15PM--as of now, as far as *I* know, the 4thThursday Band has its' first official gig!!! The gig is on November the 23rd, at (naturally) the OTWC...a hell of a lot can happen between now and then, but I hope it doesn't...
                8:15PM--As far as I can tell, Stoney is IN...he apparently he had a Crimestoppers gig, but found somebody to take his place...it shouldn't have been Barnaby...
               I think I'd better start seriously prepping for my keyboard audition with the ACME Band co., even though I'm not sure when it will be--I think there's a gig at Lahinch in August (?) but that seems so far away...
       MONDAY 7/1/19 9:06AM--I went thru Steve's Keyboard List, a list I myself compiled...I don't think I'll have any major problems, not if I practice regularly...
     TUESDAY 7/2/19 4:45 PM--I almost forgot--I might have to buy something to play the keyboard thru, an amp or something--a powered speaker will allegedly do the trick...but first I wanna finish paying for the wireless unit...
           6:09 PM--just got a condescending, inflammatory e-mail from Stoney, cataloging all the mistakes I made last Thursday...I wish now that I had kept track of all HIS mistakes...they may have been "smaller" and fewer...but they were there...so I guess there's a double standard...I really feel like quitting, but I need the money...I'm NOT HAPPY...Butch may not have made ANY mistakes, but, frankly, he's a terrible guitar player...
       6:51PM--trying to keep my blood pressure down, it ain't easy...I notice Stoney didn't send that e-mail to anyone else...he may have been afraid someone would defend me, if only a little...I would quit right now if I didn't need the money...which, as I've said many times before, makes me a prostitute...
       7:29PM--and I'm wondering if I'm wasting my time working on my keyboard skills...if nothing else, it satisfies ME...