I've said it many times before

           FRIDAY 6/7/19 8:33AM--I have no idea what, if anything, I'm doing this weekend musically...band practice--with anybody? not that I know of...the 'stoppers are playing at Hershey's tomorrow night, but I don't like Hershey's and I feel like an ugly groupie chasing them around MontCo...I used to think of it as an audition as a singer, but the "auditions" have not borne fruit for me...by which I mean that none of the bands I'm in (or think I'm in) hired me because they saw me singing with the 'stoppers...the only reason I think I would go is if Angela was gonna be there...and I have no evidence that she is...she's not even listed as "interested"...Rona (who apparently has to be everywhere)  says "a very special guest" will be singing "a hot number" with them Sat. night--I am curious to know who that singer is...probably Rona herself...
                  I'm still pretty sure people lump me and Howard together...I almost don't blame them...I may have expressed my sadness about that to someone...I wonder if he can keep a secret...at the Wednesday open mic at Hershey's, I kinda felt myself becoming attracted to a certain someone...that's so pointless, words fail me...
7:12PM--spent a rather large part of the day fiddling around with the ASG Archives, but I could use a break...I kinda sorta wanna go see the Crimestoppers tomorrow night...and like always, it feels rather pathetic to me...of course I wonder if anyone else thinks I am...
SATURDAY 6/8/19 9:17AM--nothing going on yet...still planning to go out tonight...before we go to the movies, I wanna shower and shave and go to CVS to get a pill box small enough to hold a pair of earplugs...I dunno how much time I'll have between dinner (after the movie) and going to Hershey's...I don't think it will be much...I'm pretty sure that IF the 'stoppers invite me to sing with them, I'll say "sure"...The way I see it, I have two things working against me...my looks, and my inability to act confident, whether I actually I  feel that way or not...
 SUNDAY 6/9/19 1:12AM--they did invite to sing...though it was more like "do you wanna?"...I dunno for sure, but it sounded good from where I was...
  5:47PM--I still feel like that dorky, ugly, weird guy that people tend to stay away from...and I'm having trouble not thinking about Ann--and Shelly Williams...when did she drop the second "E" from her name?