it DOES hurt, but...

      THURSDAY 5/9/19 9:16AM--looking at Flakebook often depresses me, like when I read about Bill Mulroney making an album and not asking me if I could play on it...that hurts...bastard...he's a lawyer, some of them aren't trustworthy...I guess he's one of them...
4:32PM--I discovered that there are keyboard backing tracks on youTube from the same guy whose guitar and bass backing tracks I've "borrowed"...that makes me forget the feelings of being ostracized...dunno if Butch is going out tonight, but *I* am...
7:45PM-did not expect to see LOU SESSA here...maybe he forgot my phone number or email address...
     It turns out Lou&Scott are going up after John C. which makes me feel better...and a bit less ignored...
11:53PM--so L&S went up and did three songs...MINING, LMYR, and 909...I'd say we were a 9 on a scale of ten...the open mic ended at 10, which I think is when the place closes...now I can focus on the sit-in with Ray...
FRIDAY 5/10/19 7:27AM--I don't think Dianne is going with me tonight...mixed feelings about that...the weather is predicted to be less than ideal, as in rain...but not all day/evening /night long...
9:12AM--going to Pritchard's to hopefully get a piano chord book...at some point I wanna get a sustain pedal for the keyboard, but that might have to wait a bit...