a new outlook?

             

               THURSDAY 5/2/19 7:05AM--not going out tonight, hoping to go out tomorrow...don't yet know who's playing where...SLIGHTLY LATER--turns out there's nobody playing nearby except the Marsh Bros. at the OTWC...and they just don't do anything for me...Saturday night, there's the gig with the Combustibles, oh boy...
              FRIDAY 5/3/19 10:48AM--I probably will go to the OTWC tonight...if nothing else, I can have Dinner there...and I'll try to listen to the Marsh Bros. with a moderately critical ear...and it's not about the type of Music they play...I think they play SOME covers--that's what I'm gonna pay attention to the most...
        4:03PM--I'm clean shaven, I just gotta take a shower...gonna try to be positive and upbeat...All Humans are actors sometimes...so now it's my turn...
    9:55PM-it’s bad enough that Jessica is here...Renee is here too-sitting about seven feet away...
SATURDAY 5/4/19 1:25AM--for the second time, I kissed Jessica...at first I just shook her hand, SHE initiated the hug...the kiss was my idea; I think it was a goodbye kiss...incredibly, I've already forgotten some details...the kiss itself I'll hopefully remember for a long time...and I had a wonderful time talking to Reneé...I even had fun chatting with Mike Murray...the main purpose of the visit was to hear the Marsh Brothers Band...I thought they were pretty darn good...after I watch the episode of Star Trek I recorded, I'll likely go to bed...
9:10PM-hopefully I’ll keep my head down and my mouth shut...