but what about what *I* believe?

            TUESDAY 5/7/19 1:18PM--I believe that the ACME Band has a LONG way to go before I can be proud of (currently) being a member...I made the mistake of telling my band mates that, to some Musicians/Bands, the only opinion that matters is that of the audience...that sounds like an excuse to me..."we suck, but if the people like us and we keep getting (paying) gigs, that's all that matters..." I think 99% of my Musician "friends" feel that way, and that makes me sad...
              Monday night after practice, Phil carried my guitar upstairs and left it either in the kitchen or in the driveway...either way sounds like Phil was making a subtle symbolic statement, as in'you can be replaced' or 'I want you outta the Band'  I know it sounds like I'm being paranoid...but that doesn't mean it isn't true, right?
     I just might go to the Acoustic open mic on Thursday...it's real close to home, a little easier on my ears and I won't be putting "mileage" on my electric guitar strings...the more I think about it, the more I wanna go...but a lot can happen between now and Thursday...
1:51PM--I just had a wild idea...I'm gonna go thru the ACME list to find out which, if any, songs I could play keyboards on...
4:26PM--in addition to going thru the ACME Band song list, I watched a couple of their videos...I do believe I could play keyboards for them...Hopefully at the next practice I can bring my keyboard....maybe not many, but at lest one song on their list (What About Love) NEEDS keys, IMO...I'll work on that starting tomorrow--hopefully...
5PM--I went downstairs and after some tweaking on the keyboard, I started attempting to play WHAT ABOUT LOVE, and it sounds pretty damn good to me already...I'm trying not to get cocky about it...I think I'll spend a certain amount of time each day practicing keyboard parts...I wanna get to the point where I don't have to think too much when I'm playing...