Don’t argue with the Universe

 

             SUNDAY 10/24/21 12:30PM-I think it’s fairly obvious that the Universe didn’t want me to be here at Riley‘s lock… Major equipment problems, a disappointed roommate…a bad hair day…I  ABSOLUTELY  should’ve stayed home today, and if I have MY way I’m never coming back here…except that I CAN still sing a little…so who knows?
4:25PM--just got homr from Riley's...I can only imagine what people are/will be saying about my behavior at the Riley's Lock Jam, the early part of it at least...it's an Ego thing I know, but I just want people to like what I do, and it feels good when they let me know that they like what I do--but *I* wanna like what I do too and until I gave up on trying to be a guitarist and switched to vocals only, I didn't like what I was doing at all...my singing seemed to surprise people......The Jam (I think) was typical--no one was in charge and everyone was in charge...and as always, some Musicians are just better than others...the whole point of the Jam is to have fun,  right? 
MONDAY 10/25/21 9:05AM--if I can get the kitchen/living room straigtened up, my reward should be going to Dietle's tonight, likely with SueEl...
2;02PM whether I deserve it or not, I'm probably gonna go to Dietle's tonight...
7:30PM-should’ve stayed home tonight too…driving in the dark is hard enough, add to that a blinding rain and yer asking for trouble-and I had plenty…
8:24PM- played some Bass behind SueEl…it felt like a tree trunk…luckily I was able to switch to the “house “ Bass, which is a bit easier to play…
11:12PM--I briefly thought about going out tomorrow night, then I came to my senses...as for Thursday, I should probably stay home...that doesn't mean I will...it's OK to go to an open mic or a jam and not play or sing a single note...
TUESDAY 10/26/21 11:19AM--I came to the realization that I'm probably done being in a Band...mostly because I have lousy stage precence, lousy posture (which is a part of stage presence) and I'm far from handsome...not to mention my body is fading quickly...a kinda sad day, to put it mildly...
12:44PM--it may be wrong, it's probably an Ego thing, but I couldn't feel less like a member of the MoCo music community if I still lived in Glen Burnie...