trying to get back to “normal “

  THURSDAY 12/26/19 Noon-if I can, I’m going to try to focus on tonight‘s open mic…And like I almost always do this time of year, I’m starting to think about New Year’s resolutions... In 2020 I really really want to be a different person... Apparently who I am now has very few REAL friends...I want to try and start talking less…I’m sure there are a lot of people who think I just like to hear my sound of my own voice... I dunno if that’s true or not...it might actually be true...
        3:20 PM-I forgot that as far as the 0TWC 4th Thursday open mic set up is concerned, I’m back in the corner where I used to be in the Harbison days…I wouldn’t mind that so much if Butch wasn’t still right next to me...it doesn’t make sense to ME to have two guitars next to each other…I guess it’ s always gonna be like that with the FHB...Not to mention that he takes up a bit more room than I do...So it’s back to feeling like a second-class citizen, if that...but I need the money...
     And I wonder why I bust my ass to get here by 3 o’clock when I can’t really set up my stuff until Brian and Butch gets finished setting up  theirs...
4:49 PM-going to take a shower, eat dinner then go back to the OTWC… I want to be back there before 7:30… Which gives me about an hour to sit around and do next to nothing except be nervous…
6:17 PM-I am is clean and clean shaven as I’m going to get...I can’t see any reason to sit here and watch TV for 30 minutes or even 20 minutes...I’m gonna leave in about 10 minutes… I know I probably shouldn’t, but I’m going to have some ice cream for dessert BEFORE I do any singing…