and we start again

            SUNDAY 10/21/18 8:07PM--so tomorrow I should think about what songs I might sing at Gumbo Ya Ya that evening, if any...I don't feel like thinking about it now...and I'm seriously considering putting new strings on the Fender acoustic...
     MONDAY 10/22/18 9:15AM--going out shortly to do stuff...was having second thoughts about going to Gumbo Ya Ya...and then just about the first thing I saw on Flakebook was the BobFest version of MY BACK PAGES...that might mean something...I just dunno what...
      7:15PM- i’m damn near last on the list here at gumbo Ya Ya…I’ll never get used to playing solo in front of people if there aren’t any people to play solo in front of; and I’m assuming Donate and her two friends had a discussion with Rob about singing with him...
         As of now I’m doing all Dylan songs...might mix it up a bit-or not...maybe I shoulda worn louder clothing...I’m feeling invisible...well, that’s what can happen when you’re solo I guess...kinda sorry I came here tonight...do I want an audience or not? *I* have no idea...
9PM-I was kinda prepared to work solo, but Donate had another idea...there IS strength in numbers...so Voices Three will likely join me on RELEASED...and I’m only gonna do two and a half songs...
10:35PM-but those two and a half songs went pretty damn well, if I do say so myself...and the audience was a big enuff...Donate sez she recorded me...I  guess I'll see it sometime Tuesday...now I can think about the open mic at Crossroads...
         I've got a setlist of five songs...I really intend to rehearse at least some of them...not sure what I would do if I needed a sixth song; maybe I should give it some thought...
TUESDAY 10/23/18.  7:35PM- just finished my set at Crossroads... I absolutely sucked...Angela showed up; that was bad enough... then Alan Main showed up...he’s sitting with her...that’s kinda like pouring salt into the wound...I woulda been better if I had spent a LOT more time rehearsing... I think if I could leave now, I would…if I remember, next time I’ll take a Xanax...IF there’s gonna be a next time...
      It had to happen eventually...I’m wondering if I was meant to do this solo acoustic thing after all…maybe I’m being too hard on myself-MAYBE...after all, I’ve only been doing the solo thing for about three weeks, (since about 10/2) and the performances have been at least halfway decent...until tonight, that is...
9PM-soooo glad Alan and I did Guinevere...that damn near makes up for my solo set..I did have trouble keeping it together during it...dunno if anyone could tell...after the fact, one of the performers said, "I thought you would join me for THE LEE SHORE"...I sure as hell wanted to, but he didn't ask me...an evening best forgotten...