so what IS the problem?

          I wish I knew why I'm shunned by many in MontCo Music Community...I just don't get it...is my association with Barry hurting me? I am pretty sure everybody knows the Combustibles suck; no one ever comes to see us...what all those people might not know is that *I* know we suck...
         I know I'm not good looking, so maybe that's it...Does anybody/everybody think I'm weird? Do they lump me in with Howard Roberts? I know that's not the nicest thing I could say, but I believe that generally he's not the most popular member of my social circle, however large it may or may not be...
          Whatever the problem is, is it something I can change? and why should I change? Take me as I am, right? As hard as I try, I just can't be mellow or blend in with a crowd...Although I was fairly invisible at the Crimestoppers gig on Saturday 9/15...that still hurts a bit...and now suddenly Karn doesn't wanna talk to me on FB--I wonder what's going on?
     TUESDAY 9/18/18 10PM--met up with Karn, got the Epi back...it's better than it was...whether it could use further work, *I* don't know...Jeff seems to think so...at any rate I had a good time at the Crossroads open mic...I can't honestly say for sure how important it is to me that the host or hostess be impressed with me, but Jackie indicated that she was...and that makes me feel good...
       Now I can focus on the audition/practice with Oz, scheduled for 7PM tomorrow in Falls Church...I plan on leaving the Gizmo at home...