let the healing begin, at least after I remove this knife

 

    TUESDAY 6/29/21 11:27PM--just got back from the Main Stage Grille...and dropping SueEl off at her place...I got lost leaving her apartment complex, but eventually I got to where I wanted to be--home...I was more annoyed than angry...
         At the open mic, I used Butterscotch thru one of the "communal" amps and later thru Max's amp...in both cases I used my "fuzz" and Chorus...I was more satisfied with my playing the second time I got onstage...SueEl sang a couple of songs...I didn't sing any, and I'm ok with that...
        WEDNESDAY 6/30/21 Considering the prediction of excessive heat and the humidity, I might NOT be going to Hershey's on Thursday...Of course a lot can happen weather-wise between now and Six o'clock Thursday...I'd LIKE to go...but it's too soon to know...SueEl says she's probably not gonna go...
4:49PM--went to Litz, bought a six-string neck, with tuners already installed, for $25 bucks...and I bought a set of strings as well...I guess I'll use a part of the NEXT SSA check to professionally finish what I started... I've waited all this time, what's one more month, right?
THURSDAY 7/1/21 Just got in from the Hershey's jam...as I predicted, the bad weather, or the threat thereof, kept Musicians away...I arrived later than I wanted to, but still managed to lay claim to a corner of the stage...to be frank, maybe I was a bit of a prima donna, but I don't yet care...Officially, I did one lead vocal--a verse of THE WEIGHT--and lotsa harmonies...
FRIDAY 7/2/21 6:52AM--Ray responded (via FB Messenger) to the statements I made last Saturday...I THOUGHT that he had accepeted my apologies and that we were still friends--it looks like I was wrong on BOTH counts...That's OK by me...of course, I can't PROVE that, you'll just have to believe me...
7:27AM--Ray might not be done lecturing ME, but I'm done communicating with HIM...And I think "that ends our time together in this Lifetime" means the relationship is over...I imagine my friendships with Tish and John Vengrousky may be over as well...so be it...
8:36AM--it's starting to sink in that my relationship with Ray (HOWEVER you wanna charcterize it) may be over...I can still live w/o him; I can even play Music without him...