maybe no one else cares

                   SUNDAY 3/3/19 5:35PM--the only possibilities are that none of the other members of the Combustibles can hear how bad we are--or they just don't care...now I can start looking forward to rehearsal with ITN...I don't think weather is gonna be a problem...
6:50PM--and I'm reading on Flakebook how great that Beach boys Tribute band is...did they improve that much after I left? I doubt it...I suspect people don't wanna hurt yer feelings, but I wonder what they're really thinking...for example, Sue Johnstone can't really believe that the Combustibles gig at Clyde's last week was "great", can she?...another example, the other band members don't really think practice went well, do they? And I can't imagine what guest Bass player Brian REALLY thinks about what he heard today...
          As far as I know, ITN practice is still on for tomorrow evening...I hope I remember to take a Xanax before I leave to go there...I'm sure I'll be super nervous eventually, but now I'm just excited...
 I was hanging out with Dianne and Sue yesterday, talking about among other things, feeling left out when your "friends" have fun w/o you...and Flakebook is overflowing with posts by people reporting on their active social lives...and a sub category of that is people's Musical activities...I get no pleasure whatsoever hearing about what my Musician "friends" are up to...
       Seriously, why do I spend so much time on the sidelines? I know I'm not handsome...is THAT it? I know there are "better" guitar players, is THAT it? it hurts sometimes to see that stuff on FB...well, one bandleader thinks I'm good enough to be in the OTWC 4th Thursday open mic House Band...and hopefully I have a bright future with InToneNation...
MONDAY 3/4/19 8:55AM--in spite of the fact that I have a doctor's appointment in about an hour, I'm excited about tonight's ITN rehearsal...it's kinda hard for me to think about anything else...just got word that practice is ON for tonight...excitement will turn to nervousness soon, if it hasn't already...