anti-climax or being forgotten

WEDNESDAY 5/16/18 5:33PM--The Crimestoppers will be having TWO guitarists at Hershey's on Saturday 5/19...no, I'm not one of 'em...probably because I blew it at the Star Diner and/or B72 all those years ago...a bigger man would be magnanimous...I could change my Mind, but at this point in time I say "fuckit"...what a wonderful 63rd Birthday I'm gonna have--NOT...

                 10:38PM--still don't WANT to go to Hershey's on Saturday, but I wouldn't be too surprised if I end up going anyway...of course, if I didn't, I'd possibly hate myself Sunday morning...

SUNDAY 5/19/18--I won't hate myself...I went to Hershey's and I sang harmony on two Neil Young songs...It sounded real good as far as I could tell...I give myself (at least) a 9.5